If I’m being honest, I am not living the sort of lifestyle that I want right now. I’m wary of making generalizations, but I also think that’s something I have in common with a lot of people. How often have you heard the phrases “someday” or “when the time is right I can do ___” or “once ___ happens I can do ___”?
I say these phrases all the time. It’s mostly subconscious. I don’t even realize I’m saying them.
In my last post I talked about how I think about my goals for the future. Everything I said still holds true. I still don’t know where I will be in five years or what it is exactly that I want. But I do know what kind of lifestyle I want. I know the kinds of routines, attitude, habits, even diet I want. I can picture in my mind what my mornings would look like and how every room in my apartment would look in this ideal future. Some of these things I can’t have right now. I’m still living at home with my parents and I’m not quite in a position to move out, so it’s not like I can design an apartment for myself right now. However, other things in this ideal future are attainable right now. What’s stopping me from living the ideal lifestyle?
Probably just myself. If I pause and really think about it I am the biggest roadblock between me and this ideal version of myself.
That sounds like some line from a corny motivational YouTube video, but it’s still true.
If I want to be the sort of person that gets up early and sleeps early, why can’t I? If I want to be the sort of person that eats plant based for a whole day at least once a week, what’s stopping me? If I want to reorganize my room I CAN. I am fully capable of redecorating. But I haven’t.
Part of it is accountability. Not to anyone else, but to myself. I promise myself that I will do the things I want to do, but then I forget about them a day later in favour of other things that take higher priority. The other part, if I’m being honest, is effort. It takes effort to change habits. It’s easy to stick with what you already know, even if it’s not really what you want to be doing. Changing your habits takes conscious effort, every day, until they stick. And even then it can be a little too easy to slide backward into the old ways that are easy and thoughtless.
The future me in my head is very different from present me. I mean, that future me is still ME, but upgraded. She does all the things present me swears I’ll do, but never gets to. But, in order for that upgraded future me to exist, I have to put in effort. I don’t know why I expect her to have more time to do the things present me wants. She won’t. If anything, future me will be way busier and have way less time.
I have to start making time now. Otherwise, it will never happen. It’s overwhelming, though. Between the accountability, the effort I know it will take to ‘upgrade’ myself, and the difference I imagine between future me and present me, there’s a lot to take in.
But there’s no getting around it. The only thing I can really do is try to hack myself, make it easier. I can actually start writing things down in places I will remember. (For that, I use notion. It’s a real game changer). I can focus on where I’m at right now. And I can take little steps rather than big leaps.
We hear it all the time; take little steps. One step at a time. But it’s true! I think that’s how I’m going to get over the overwhelm. I’ll make a list of the things I can do right now, and pick one to focus on for the next few weeks.
MY list as of right now is as follows:
- Fix my sleep schedule. Sleep by 11, up by 7.
- Less social media time. Not completely cut out because I use it to talk to friends, but less mindless scrolling.
- Eat plant-based more often. Not cut out meat COMPLETELY, just eat less of it.
- Reorganize and redecorate my room.
- Learn more every day for personal interest, not just obligation from school.
I’ve been focusing on my diet a lot lately anyways, so I think the easiest of these to integrate into my life is probably eating more plant based. I’ve always wanted to get better at cooking and have more variety in my diet. Now is as good a time as any!
When I think about ‘upgrading’ my life it always seems very daunting. It seems like I have to make massive changes. But I’m realizing it doesn’t have to be like that. It only feels overwhelming because I’m impatient. I want all these changes to happen right now. I want to be the better version of myself right now. But it’s not realistic to think like that. I have to be patient and take small steps, and eventually I will get there.